you

Your fingertips on my body
tracing hearts across my back
tracing "i love you" onto my arms
blowing raspberries on the flab of my stomach
and I sit awake
perched against the wall with my head leaned back
your lips trail down my neck
as I slit my eyes just long enough to light a cigarette

you swat it away,
and force your lips down onto mine
hungrily
I laugh deep in my throat and exhale smoke into your face
with a smirk that claims life in itself
is grand

you leave galaxies across my skin, ones I can and cannot hide
ones that others could quite easily find and
the bruises fade to a sickening yellow
but in my dreams they're still black and red and
there are still bite marks lining my neck
like when they first happened

another drag and more kisses
and my head is floating
and nothing is screaming there is only
peace